i wanna fly like i've never flown before,

Friday, February 13, 2009

I've just discovered this new facility here on facebook, the NOTE section, and am high influenced by a friend who is merely 20 years of age, whose insights and adage inspires me to dive myself into the cankering sound of rushing black keyboards, forming aphorisms I'd like to call my own.

decided to use it while waiting for my documents to be scanned and printed, scanned and printed, scanned and print (x 12337384623-5940 times)

In just one day, the preparation for university has slowly endowed me with these various qualities: Patience, meticulous, tech-savvy cosmopolitan IT girl. This is what i've been doing for the past 1 hour (and still counting towards the end of the day)-> Sieve material, scan, save, print, walk towards printer, open cartridge, place forms in order, pack them properly, return original documents. repeat the entire process over again till end..... i finally understand how factory workers feel.

I must have already used up the whole stack of HP everyday paper, 500 sheets (Swore for top quality), printing the 3 stacks of application materials, referral letters, awards, results, testimonials. Small price to pay to "lay out a bright path for thy own future" Sometimes i wonder "What am i complaining about?"

Anyway i've been procrastinating for far too long, always busy with tuition, work, dance, competitions, performance, 21st birthdays and what not. EUNICE CHEW! SNAP OUT OF IT!

So much effort put in with just a mustard seed grain of hope that one would get accepted for the as promised prestigious placement in the local university, bearing the dream of prestigious degree, prestigious job, title and due recognition in the years to come..... typical Singaporean dream "As quoted, Singapore Dreaming"

"people want to see what you're worth!" my mother says. So, everything is like a package? The world encompasses such fraudulence. Don't get me wrong, not being negative here. Merely stating the fact.

Yes, we humans look and favor "beauty", regardless of it's relativity. I guess that's how we were created, born and designed to seek out beauty.

Say, you make a friend. First thing that your senses pick up, is aesthetic chemistry. I'm not saying the person has to look exactly like Brad Pitt or have the appeal of Gwyneth Paltrow. We would be more apt to accept and be receptive to the person's advances as long as that person is presentable. Everyone, and i mean EVERYONE is guilty as charged of this demeanor. Nothing wrong about it hahah because we were born that way. We act that way even before our minds connect and sends a signal to our subconscious self that "Hey! you're being shallow here"

Say, you go to an interview or want to be chosen for a role in an action movie. Directors and cast managers are all about the looks. It takes only 5 secs for someone to form a first impression of you, and it lasts forever. (The rest is history) One is more likely to employ someone with clean cool cut, but not so impressive resume, than someone who has an IQ of 300 but comes in scrawny, disheveled, and wears no pants.

Humans are superficial:)

Everything is just a package. It comes and goes and passes like the wind. Why hanker?

Alright, i was rudely interrupted by 1) My mother's nagging and messing up my applications, 2)the empty printer ink, haix... why so much hindrance!! I just want to complete something this very moment and now i have to wait....

You know what they say, "If it's yours it'll naturally come to you"

My friend just shared her good news that she has just been offered a sponsorship. She's one of those kinds whom i realized, is always in favor of God's blessings. Good things come to her, just as bees are attracted to honey. Probably because she lives for God's words as well, always so sweet, nice, obliging. There was a period when we were classmates in school, i was often worried for her interpersonal skills with the rest in class. Her guileless and innocence stole hated stares and gossips about the way she did her presentations. I never told her about it for fear of hurting her feelings. I only pulled her away from those vipers vindictive snaps and took it upon myself to defend her in speech.

Why must people be so bad to each other? Although i am sometimes guilty of falling into an abyss of confrontations, i often feel terrible about it after that and make sure i end it well.

I hate to see conspicuous discrimination and do nothing about it. I still remember the awkwardness whilst entering class with a hateful mindset that everyone is bad and against such a kind doe deer. Sometimes i think i ponder too much and take upon unnecessary burdens, making myself so miserable. I finally realized she had the magnanimity to sieve out the unedifying comments and only "listen to the good things". I used to have such strong feelings of sympathy for her, being subjected to so much humiliation in class when all i could do to protect her is spit back the poison. Then i realized she was much stronger than myself. Stronger than anyone who judged her. I realized they were gossiping to cover up their own insecurities.

That's why god has his way of loving and providing for her. Be it relationships, studies, career. I can see he has a good plan, to guide and protect her. I'm comforted.

Y2:51:00 PM

Saturday, October 25, 2008

This post is specially dedicated to Miss Liana Lim, my dearest FYP Team Mates, Cat and Cheryl dearies and especially my parents!

Haha this year's birthday's much too different from the past years, many pre-mature surprises, belated surprises and eventful actual day itself. This post is really belated as well! Up to my throat with FYP, school, projects, dance (and especially dance) and what nots:)

I'm so happy that my parents and church dearies gave me a special birthday surprise this year! before my birthday that i was so busy with mid point to do anything else! Yes, Final Year Project midpoint presentation on my birthday itself. Rather hectic. My parents and friends decided to celebrate for me before it all haha....

Best of all that commotion and hullabaloo, i didn't even suspect anything! Imagine, clad in pajamas, lying on my couch in the living room without a bra and watching TV awaiting dinner when everyone budged in! It was a lovely surprise and very thoughtful of them anyway :):) I LOVE YOU ALL!!

A day before my birthday, FYP team had to go source for installation materials all around beach road, Arab street and party shops! In the midst of playing, getting scratched by Lisa's finger nails, obtaining a new nick name NINI!! my fyp team mates actually found time to plan a surprise for me as well! I"M SO TOUCHED! i was an hour late for my midpoint meeting on the 15th and thank god they bought the cake without cream ahha! thank you my dears so much for the surprise, the VERY CREATIVE POEM, the planner and all your love! I LOVE YOU!

Thank you miss Florina for your special "GOAT" clip and note too:) AWWW:):)

My dearie St nicks cloud 9 gals Stella and Manda babes also gave me a surprise:) Thank you dearies for the Swensons treat and the birthday ice cream and the card that i was soooo blur throughout it all!

My heart goes out to Stella especially, despite her mother's hospitalization on that day itself, she still came to surprise me... My condolences for your lost. I really teared for you and your family, and i just want you to know that you have my and all our cloud 9 friend's support. I love you dear! :)

Then just yesterday, my classmates gave me a surprise card. Mastermind and creative director of it all was Miss Liana Lim hehe and her ingenious recycled birthday card tradition for all her friends! She was so sweet to ask everyone to sign and even burnt a poem twice before she got the burn edges right! Awwwwww i'm so touched! heheh

I honestly expected a quiet birthday with just myself and family having a meal together somehow in the midst of a busy FYP life, but you guys just add so much color into my life. Special thanks to all of you who msged, MSNed, facebooked and friendstered birthday greetings heh, Thank you for remembering! I thank god so much for all of this, i truly do appreciate all your efforts and am touched to the core by all your cares and concerns! It's because god's blessings that i have you guys with me that makes life worthwhile and so bearable!

*And you:) thank you for being the first to call me at 12midnight on the 15th haha, i really appreciate your "under the tree" phone calls heheh

FYP fund raising which thanks all my FYP team mates, was a great great great success! Thank God for the providence of 49 cars, lots of cash donations and abi's dad's sponsorship of materials and methods. Another special mention to Miss Liana Lim who so specially helped out, she specially got her hands and shirt and jeans dirty and her wholeself tired out helping us wash the cars! I'm so touched!!! AWWWW (i don't know how many times i'm going to say this man) ahaah Liana, one day you're going to get yourself a damn good husband to take care and love you like you love all your friends:):) i'm going to make sure you find that guy... and especially he must be able to support you and your rice and Chi Ko Pak habits all your life!!! wahahahah!

Arghhh that's the problem with not posting on time, too much details, too little patience to blog about it anymore hehe.... my fingers stop here for now as i drift off to a land of blue skies, windmills, rainbows and a svelte physique

Y10:43:00 PM

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

so what's up during the holidays? heh....BJs!!

BJS!!!

And More BJS!!

Did Tian Chang Di Jiu Concert...took Zhao Yong Hua

Press conference. We stayed at Intercontinental Hotel...the bed....was great!

Oh look! Pan Mei Chen and Sky Wu....

Miss Maisy and I.. Thank God for her company...:):)

Goofing around against the wallpaper we like so much!

Zhao and Bei-Ren-Da!! :):) So cute and funny!

The Power of Make up!

Suntec convention Halls 602-603

Have to entertain our guest while waiting for the Artist party....

The Manager, the artist, & the Make up artist...

I kinda had fun and gained a whole load of exposure to what goes behind the scenes for a major concert production...most of the crew were from esplanade....i was glad to be given the opportunity...and earn the extra moolahs:):)... things went pretty well besides the flight luggauge delay on the first day....I gave my very first Mustafa experience to this bunch of foreigners when they arrived because they had to gather their necessities like make up and brushes..... Seemed like a local foreigner with the foreigners in a foreign mustafa land....

Had to be at the venue from afternoon till night though and return home at 12 midnight on the dot....in the midst we met interesting people, bunk in the artist's room and learnt who's straight and who's gay in the chinese entertainment biz :P (bonus material)..... One thing i loved loved loved about this job...is the wonderful sheets in the hotel! OMG how do i even describe the bed..... you expect to just lie in it....instead you sink into its fabric and float to dreamland without even realising it.... I have decided to invest in a great bed! Fluffy pillows and a thick comforter.... any recommendations for brands?! :)

Nowadays FYP, school, dance and tuition are the most of what my life is made up off.... gosh.... need a breather....i have no time for anything else!! but busy is good haha....i hope things run smoothly from now on:):)

Y5:02:00 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

missing pictures i've yet to upload during the holidays!

Baybeats!!

Trip to JB, reliving the 3 numbnuts!!

Min min looks like a korean ACTOR! SO handsome!

Liquid kitchen...i like:))

FYP! Painting recycled bags

Eileen's farewell Party!

Film shot trial for Food Tasting!

They damn hilarious! See the guy on the RIGHT, he took all my photos! Good angles!

I didn't know you could do such things with a hoodie!!

Saturday morning at YMCA for a good cause..i like!

On a joy ride around singapore to xavier's birthday!

sent clara off to korea yesterday....will miss her!

One morning when i woke up, i received a really sweet message:

" Everytime i close my eyes, i see your sweet smile,

Every night i put on my ear piece, i hear your endearing laughter

You're like spring water that mourishes

And sunlight that give life

I'll be happy if you're as well..."

Thank you for making my day:)

Sometimes in life you just need the simple things to keep you alive and moving along throughout the stressful pressures of school and expectations of society. A simple get together with friends during the weekend, laughing and catching up what we all missed throughout days of their university livea or my FYP weekends, these that i never had time or thought was important to do when i was caught up with a relationship doomed to failure from the start.......silly me.... when i think about it now, all i can do is laugh.....

there are so much more important things waiting for me out there i thought were no longer existent.... sometimes it waits for you to fill up your heart and soul, we just never noticed...or cared...

But these things makes you grow, you know, great blows knock you hard to make you stop and reflect, whether you've been bad or good, why things ended this way, how we can improve.... sometimes i hate the heartache but i never regret the lesson, without which i wouldn't have been who i am today..... I thank God for the fruitful experiences, especially the strength he gives me to pull through the difficulties i put myself through.... silly me......

I'm thankful for the night calls sometimes, you make me laugh, especially the multi-tasking PSP and i'm amazed at how you always manage to sound like you're hosting a sports program even over the phone haha...keep up the good work!! thank you for all the concern:)

So there are friends around, to keep you going....Friends are a gift from god that i hope to keep for a long time, if not forever......I pray that all of us have sticky hands, so we'll hold on together....

Y5:37:00 PM

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Just a blast of melbourne!!:):)

Loved the weather....loved the company....loved the experience.....:):)

Y5:09:00 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!

Although only three weeks but still better than nothing.... last week of school was a mad rush with completing FYP proposal, i almost had a heart attack counting down to the 12pm dateline that frightful day because i found out at 1025am that i was supposed to be adding in the installation details. I almost wanted to skip arts management class that day just to complete the proposal....working between 2nd meeting, browsing websites for CV templates for class and looking up from my vigorous typing to answer the facil....omg...i almost went mad... but i'm proud to say I DID IT! proclaimed myself fastest fingers first!!! wahaha.... and the proposal got accepted! and i obtained an A for that day *Tweeze*!!!

Anyway... i don't tink i'll miss the stressful school days with fake faces of smiling and yadayada negativity.... this holiday is much called for and i have the whole lot planned ahead for the next three weeks, everyday is packed... and i'm glad... more things to do that means less idle time for rotting away at home... counting down the days.... i'm flying off on the 21st this coming thursday... T3 coffee bean last minute meeting and briefing plus lugging of suitcases and itnery.. honestly, i'm not very excited about it... more of like i don't know what to expect of this school trip... not like the time in SP to Malacca... all my best friends whom i know i will have a good time with.... Pray PRAy PRAY!! this $1100 SGD gotta be worth it....

LAst day of school last minute photoshoot....Miss curly hair Van Van owes me a bubble tea for the last minute notice!!:)

Piles of unhygenic make up...

Very nice photo shoot set up:) with the hunks and babes of RP and Poster Boy rong wei's information of music and sponsorship... good to pass time waha!

Cutie Majori's blazer! Pinned to fit her small frame... she's so uber cute!!!!

Grab the photos at OSG webby later.... Then we had the outdoor shoot...I'D BE MORTIFIED!!! we were told to jump up... shan't explain the horrifying details, those who were there will know...wahah...

Dearie Klarie made these cute things!! OMG....the icing's perfect!

She green-heart me.... i red-heart her... awwwww

It's kinda sad that only towards the end of the 16 weeks of arts management class did i get a chance to know the few numbnuts in that class better, namely- klaire,ai-de (short one) etc, they are damn funny and always sing K-box in class...Ling hui even brought her mike to school! omg... really making full use of the school facilities before we leave RP for good.... hahaha... hmmm reflecting on my perceived image before- was i too fierce? was i too serious? dull face jane who never laughed except at cynical remarks? or perhaps i was too caught up at achieving and doing presentations plus shooting down those half sharpened arrows by lazy bums blabber mouth hoping to get a better grade, not by doing work, but by making unsolicited comments which doesn't make sense to the whole class.... anyway, i'm all these for what?..... end of 16 weeks, i find myself with the cheese i've always wanted... or so i thought.....

CISCO GIRLS!

Me and Sam went to work at the 12th infocomm exhibition at Suntec city convention hall last thursday..(i missed dance!:() we both broke our shoes!!!!

TA-DA! Cisco booth and the survey forms almost drown me haha.... what a flutter.... SAM! You got featured on zhao bao when the minister came hehe! my half a head was featured too cos i was too engrossed in packing the surveys....

After which we went to Ministry of Food for Jap food... ramen course was alright, but the confusing discount details was damn jialat.... ambience was princessy... the best thing i liked... was this pot of tea.....haha

Sam ah sam.... you're damn funny lah... go shopping also must sms your friend see whether can buy or not hahahah then we went for a panties rampage!!! wahahhahahah we were choosing the smallest sizes amongst a rack of oversize panties that would drop once you wear it wahahah... sam still say she didn't want to wear PANTS instead of panties.... omg.... enough juicy details... i'm laughing as i'm typing this... Point is.... i laughed till i rolled on the floor of Top Shop... embarrassing!!!! SAM i hope you can fit into them... otherwise your poor mother have to wear those fanciful underwear!

rushing to complete the entry and go for my jog before it turns too dark!!!

This is tuition kid, mr penguino clarenco... and his baby brother hehe....

Everytime i scold you and you giggle with this nonsense smile.... hai... i really don't know what to do with you....

Movies!! It's been 100230493059 months since i last went for a real movie screening... haha... saturday at PS watching LOVE GURU.... damn funny!! i was laughing my butt off and the whole seat was shaking...hehe.... see the enclosed...obvious HIS dirty camo cream fingers... eeeee... hehe... thanks for the movie and sorry for hogging the pop corns!!!

Went to DIASO... and spotted alot of interesting stuff.....including this penguin water fliter!! it flaps it's flappers when moved left to right.....so cute!!! hehe

DANGER. BEWARE. DANGER. BEWARE. EAT AT YOUR OWN RISK. MA LA BAN MIAN at lavender food square......

The soup was practically filled with chilli.... the residue left after your sip up your soup is the chilli seeds... how can it not be spicy beyond belief...but the feeling is out of this world man.... florence and the rest were so marvelled at my rose red plumpy lips and the tears streaming out of my eyes as i ate this work of art..... the flakes at the side of the bowl were the chilli flakes... i must have looked like a mad lady crying, laughing and eating all at the same time!!!

Ahhhh well, sunday is rest day.... more to come in the next week... tuition... tuition.... and more tuition everyday till i fly off.... packing to do..... Mom has promised to go city plaza with me tmr!!! excited..... came past these tube dresses..... i think i got affected by SAM haaha must take picture and ask friend.....which one nicer?

Got alot of movies from my friends..... sure got things to do during holidays hehe.... i know i love it....XOXO!

Y6:24:00 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I'm excited! i'm excited! Because it's the last week of school.....and everyone knows it well.... prove of RP student's self proclaimed holidays....just the two of us, Jane and me on arts marketing problem 15!!

After Dance class on thursday, half of me was hot and sticky with all the sweat, half of me feels icy and cold.... self-reproach system why i cannot forget and get over things even after the other half has clearly moved on.... I'm a silly girl.....

BUT.... when God closes a door...obviously a bad one with loose hinges, he opens a window, with the smell of roses outside....dinner at Chomps with Dearie Jo (never fails to perk me up! :) Love ya! with Mr BRIAN Lim Dao Qing (Drink Soya Sauce?!) and Paul was hilarious from the beginning till he fetched us home! :):)

All Squashed up behind! Me on Soya Sauce and Jo on me....Thank God no police on that day...

Boy, we could seriously consider joining Subaru "20 in one car" contest....we really squeezed like mad!! Poor Soya Sauce, he couldn't feel his legs when he got out of the car! i seriously should lose some weight.... working on it :X

It's in times like these where you need friends like them to cheer you up... they are like the tissues who soak up your tears.... either ways i'm greatful for the concern where i needed it most, no matter who it was...when i was sick, when i was sad.... i'll really return the favor and be there for you guys too!! :):)

I'm excited! I'm excited! Because NDP was finally here! I DID have a blast of my 2008!! (so far that is:))

We met early that day... early for once!!! haha.... preparing for NDP was the usual playing, laming, goofing, eating, drink half soden isotons that looked like yellow pee....haha!

My 2 NDP besties: Mabel and Joanne:):) What would NDP life be without them?--> Boring...Thank GOd for these 2 numbnuts!

Our Choco-Mocha ice cream lip stick before we went....XOXO

Where we specially dumped our barangs together and made special arrangements with Soon-to-be numbnut-in-law Victor CFX hehe....

Who could forget our aunties gang! They are so much fun haha with all their shared experience with life... Tampon jokes!! and hip knocking before we enter the performance arena.... fun!

Uncle Eric, whom i so happen to know so many years ago when i was so a Fat little nyumphet in St Nicholas.... haha he taught me my first slapping ladders and Mambo number 5.... the world is so small!

All rehearsing.... and three of us just didn't care :p

Donning on the macdonalds outfit...all set to go!

Time to line up to the floating platform!

On the way we heard some really funny songs like "old macdonalds and Dang wo men tong zai yi qi".... hmmmm sang by the enthu aunties whom mabel labelled as "The Minnie Mouse Club"!!

The many times pass Kenko and it's medical smell of feet......how could i forget....

Road block! Road block! I took pictures till i banged into 3 cones!

Nation queueing up to enter the performance area.... those lucky people...

Entering the backstage of floating platform!

All performers getting ready.... Jean Danker's army truck!

And then there were the Sexy leggy cheer leaders...

And the international cuties who reside in Singapore....

The Grey curtains! Just 5mm that seperates us from the performance platform and hundreds of audiences!!!...............Guess who's looking Jo ;)

Ladies and gentlemen! Introducing: Line Dance segment!! (Open curtain and FASTER RUN OUT!!)

While running out....... still managed to take a snap with my handphone camera! Could only manage to sneak in this:X

And there was it, just 5 minutes of performing.... after 6 months of rehearsals! I attended the first floating platform performance last year.. This year i'm here again... just on a different side of the stage....such an invirogating experience i'd never forget... performing on across the field for my nation fills me with such patriotic spirit.... haha who says we can't help if we're not in the army!! there's still dance!! hehe.....

All sweaty and Hyper after the performance, back beneath the platform again..... hmmm line of officers and flag beariers... wonder if Cousin Edwin and his fellow scholars were amongst them....Singapore's Elites!

There we were, hiding in the toliet and changing.... shan't explain why, least we get arrested because of my untactful words:p

We found seats at the green Zone!!

It was raining slightly... everyone had their red pon-chos on....Talk about Singapore Spirit...

We have our special pon-chos too okay.... hehz

Contingents....Although as compared to the preview of Olympics 08 opening ceremony the day before.... NDP was not much of a spectacle....but...still good:) Neat contigents....

SAF Special Accapella! Jeremy is in there! On the left of Jacintha....She's good.....He's good.....:):)

Marikita!!

black Hawks just leaves me gasping for air because their performance was spectacle! I don't know why i was still having a bantle of little girl cries and squealms when i saw them fly across since i've already seen it every week.... the atmosphere and acknowledgment that you're in NDP itself speaks vast difference in perceived sight!!

Standing to welcome President Nathan....

Three Flowers.... Under our costumes for protection from the rain....

Performance officially began... as i carefully featured NDP happenings with my trusthy Camera phone which i've been growing fond of increasing as it journys with my "experditions":)...Notice the change of the sunlight....

Finally CFX came with our bags, clothes and food!! Change! Mabel... he's good:)

Joanne came to sit with me, giving the couple a little time on their own while both of us filled the front seats with our girlish screams of excitement and photo taking....

Well then of course, what's national day without the FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Bleh... failed attempt to capture the fireworks background....

YAY!!! offically ended NDP 08.... Aftermath was so much more interactive than the year before, they had DJ spinning heats while the performers jammed on the platform.... cool!

Love birds! I wish you all the best!! Get hitched next year on National Day! Get married on national Day! Give birth on National day every year till you've grown tired and weary of family life! :):) 0908 is such a special date for you guys i'd buy the date for you if it hadn't already belong to our country waha!

And for the record............he blinks again.....waha!

Ahhh.... three beauties.....NDP Blast 2008.......:):) LOVES!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO....I know i love it.....;)

Y11:23:00 PM